Coming out to my parents.

[Ramulus]

Its been a long road I mean what else could I say? Being in the Army is stressful enough but coming to grips with my sexuality at the same time has been harrowing much less building up enough courage to tell my parents. Ive never really been afforded the opportunity to really explore myself and as of recent Ive been thinking more and more of life and how I will live it when I am out of the Army and transitioned into civilian life. Through all of this Ive met many great wonderful people and one of which whom I met through a the bi-weekly Perkins meets having happened to be on leave at the time Ive gotten to know very well and grown very close to. I hadn’t ever though of his gender as a factor but rather who he was and is as a person, judging him from that rather than a preset traditional taught and instituted means and Ive come to fall in love with him. Each and every day he’s been there for me and Ive been able to talk and connect with him on levels I never knew existed and I know are true and not any sort of spur of the moment types of feelings. For nearly a year Ive waited to bring this up to my parent and up until about an hour ago I hadn’t given any sort of hint to them.

As I write this Ive just gotten off call home which I usually do on the weekends back home and I had managed to build up enough courage to come out to my mother over the phone in admitting to her that I have feelings for another male and that I love him. Ive never been so nervous or shaky even in combat while deployed which just goes to show the courage I now credit to those who have come out to their parents. Reaction wise I can say say all that she said in return was “wow” and I stayed with her on the phone as long as I could explaining all the details that I could but still hiding the fact that I had become intimate/slept with him. I didn’t want to take the risk as she hadn’t come out as approving or disapproving. All she had said was to be careful and I know very well what she meant by that. My mother didnt lash out at me or anything like that which is good.I only hope she just doesnt love me any less. Time will only tell however.

What Im truly nervous for now is the call I will make tomorrow back home in which I will be telling my father. In all honesty I have no idea what to expect in reaction from him but I know no matter what that I am what I am and there is no changing that and that I will still and always love him as a father and hope he can still do the same in return. Im just not all too sure what to expect as he’s been quite communative with the news on TV with the whole gay marriage thing going on in being against it which I can understand to a point as thats just how they were raised. Something which I cannot full heartedly fault them for. They are the best parents I could have ever hoped for as I would not be where I am today without them.

Anyways, I am sorry if those reading this find this topic out of place. I only wish to get this out there and off my chests as it weighs heavily on me at the moment. Any reply or support would be unbelievably appreciated.

-Ram

[Zepaw]

My thoughts are with you and I hope for nothing but the best.  I was blessed with unconditionally supportive parents and it crushes me that more can’t expect the same.  From what you’ve said it’s easy to see them coming around in time. 

[TygerDarkstorm]

Wish you all the best! I can’t imagine how tough it would be to make that call. *hug*

[Aerak]

Just a wolf’s two cents,

Be patient with your parents. It could be that both parents are instantly fine with it. Or perhaps one parent has a different opinion from the other. Either way, time is going to make things better.

[Pepper]

Heh…my mom still asks me if I got a bf and all that stuff lol.

[Skystrider]

My Parent’s didnt take it that great when they found out I loved a another man, but they still loved me, and I am sure your parents will love you and care for you regardless of your sexuality. To put it in perspective my Parents are rather conservative Christians folks but even with their beliefs they still were willing to accept it and still love me as much as they did before.

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